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[sasorgasm]

She's started over, here. I know it's the same one; I have enough experience here to know that even clones smell different from each other. But she has no memory of me, of what I am, what we had, how happy we both were. I haven't fed properly since she reappeared, probably at least a month. I don't want to tarnish the memory of her by doing anything of that level with someone else, and no one wants it willingly anyway. The kid with the goggles and the gun, and some other kid with weird hands both attacked me earlier, because I took an opportunity to feed from Ha-Neul, and I let them. I haven't felt such physical pain since he was here, and yet I didn't care. I couldn't be bothered to fight back, didn't want to fight back, didn't fucking care about any of it. I still don't. If I don't have her, and I can't even feed properly anymore, I'm useless. There's no point in being alive if I'm still trapped here, but I can't stay dead here, so... I don't know what to do. I sort of want to forget about trying to feed and just stay in my tent and wither until I can't move anymore, but my body won't let me, when I get too hungry.

There's no one around I can talk to anymore.

Comments

[hebi-no-sasuke.livejournal.com]

... You shouldn't let a bond that fleeting affect you.

[sasorgasm.livejournal.com]

You have no idea what my bond was with her.

[hebi-no-sasuke.livejournal.com]

And since it is gone, I don't have to have an idea.

[sasorgasm.livejournal.com]

Then be quiet about it, boy.